I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
240205-
reality hit me again.
i go hurt again.
i cried again.
i wanna diie.
again.
i karnt believe tht yu tryin to deny all orf thix.
tht yu kept it from me.
yu've changed.
really.
i dun noe yu.
ehs,waiit.
i tink i never did yea`
yu caused me all the tears.
i karnt hate yu.
i karnt hate her.
i can only hate myself.
for lurvin someone i shouldnt bi lurvin anyways.
hmm.super sad today.en stressed.
eyes swollen.even thou after common tests.cried 4-5 hours last night.couldnt slp at all.guess i tonight osho cnt =/ chinis marks came out today.haiis.dun ask bout iit.dhen gort chinis remedial -.- by ah ber.haiis.almost fell aslp =x dhen after tht.dhen pulled weijia kor to take bus home with me.hahas.he teach me lots mans.hahas.dhen...just came home.en screwed my eyes again T.T
thanks to weijia kor for evrythiin.tink im indebted already =x
I LURVE YU SYJIAA!!!
-a beeg wet *smuarhs`to yuu-
for liftin my mood from zero to 100 ^_^
yu'll always be my super goodie frien worhs.
rmb bells?
jiingle__* xp hehes.
en thanks weijin kor for wanting to kill -.-
LOLS.
anw.
tym for my own thots.
nites ppl.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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