I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
en now i've lost him.
ish thix retribution?
he had me in his heart.
he made so many sacrfices just to see the smile on my face.
he was mine.
burt i was too blind.
to see tht i was his all along.
ish all gone again?
guess im too late once more.
thix ish the third tym i've lost my love.
i just wanna say im sorry.
i didn't mean to say those things i said tht night.
i wasnt thinkin straight.
yu were right to slap me.
i deserved it.
if slappin me 100 times more would make yu cum baq
by all means hit me til yu're happy.
for once,im gona make yu smile.
its nort gona bi the other way round as always.
i dun noe if i can ever turn baq time.
neither can i say tht i dun miss him.
burt i know one thing for sure.
im definately not gonna live without yu.
we grew urp together from the start.
yu had always been a part orf me.
can yu pls storp playin thix stupid game?
jush cum baq.
now.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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