I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
zhe shi wo men de tong hua
we'll walk hand in hand
we'll make it together
no matter whard ppl say
in the jealous games they play
blive me when i say
ilorveyoo-
do yu mean it too?
weEt`
burfday in 4 days.
29 april marhs
HEE.
hmm.lots orf things happening now.en exams are cumin -.- arghs.i feel like dyin mans.next yr 0`level chinis sumore.krapp.nth much to post bahs.anw.public apology to MR TAY YE HAN,dhat YU are nort half half burt ish 100% PURE CHINIS.see i so nyce,put yur name extra beeg en even bold it =x hahas.yu super piig neahs.
im lorvin my liife the way it ish now.
en hell now,i never want it to change
okays.
tc evrione`
*smuarhs outt
&I thought...Nevermind.
my declaratiion`orf independance*
there's no way im tradin places-
right now the star's in the ascendant.\\
Make yur move if yu want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind urp yu either gort it or yu don't
'Til dhen Im siingle__
en dhats how i wanna bi
i liek it dhat wayy.
don't need to wait around for a man to save me
cus im happy where i am.
i don't need to bi anyone's babey
ain't needin another half to make me whole.
okays.i feel much better.thanks ah gong ytd night for helpin me out as usual.hahas.there's alort orf xmm arnd too ya noes x) hmm.havent tork for 3 wks plus.im jush gona turn a blind eye to all.walk straight past him today without lookin at him at all too.since dhats the way he wants,im gona respect it.i shuld i enjoyin single liife too :) without him,im oh-so-satiisfied with my liife =x kays.
note the scarasm =/ anws.i dun kare animore.im jush gona walk away.it's nort meant to bi.so the person in question here ish readin thix,yu shuld noe i dun give a sh*t anymore.at least..for now.so yeas`
i LORVE laine xD
&I thought...Nevermind.
www.memorii-fied.blogspot.com
so yupps.
sometimes i would post dhere.
sometimes here.
mood really bad.
imma walkin dead zombie now.
depths orf emptyness.
so many things happened.
i hatte liiife.
im abandoned.
isolated.
by ALL ORF YU.
okays.nvms.
im losin grip on myself.
im losin the faith i had.
im losin whardever i have.
en im gona let go orf all
en jush breakdown.
dhats it.
-peace-
&I thought...Nevermind.
yu lorve*me
dhat yu need me`
hen hen ai-
zhe chi wo jue ding zou chu shuo you de hui yi chong lai
jiu rang wo che di de shang,zai che di de xing lai.
wo bu zai deng dai
ni de xin yi bu zai
ba ai fang qai
hui mie ai qing
cai neng zen de qing xing
yin chang zhu gan qing
ren he jue ding dou shui bian ni
bu neng xi huan ni
ni de wei xiao guo yu gong ping
dui wo tai hao
wo hen nan fang qi...
chuan yue qian nian de shang tong
zi wei qiu yi ge jie guo
ni liu xia de lun hui
zi ying wo
hei ye zhong bu ji muo
chuan yue qian nian de ai chou
shi ni zai jing tou deng wo
zhui mei de gan dong
hui zhi de yong yi sheng qu shou hou
jiu rang chou hen shui zhe feng
dai zhou shang
dai zhou tong
rang yan lei bu zai liu
wei sheng ming zhao ge chu kou
rang xue ran hong tian kong
que yong ai qu cheng shou
+.gei wo shi xin de li you [x]
we are destined to be in lorve
when the time comes,we'll tell the whole world
burt til dhen,don't say nothing
cus wanna wait til we've got smth solid
dun say the magic words to me babey
when yu dun mean dhem
cus when i look into yur eyes
i see depths orf emptyness
en dhats when i learn
evrything was a simple liie.
okays.im kinda nort in a good mood.in order to storp myself from thinkin useless stuffs,i've actually resorted to studying liek crazii -.- firs few times i ever took urp a geog or sci bk en put my whole heart to memorise those thingys =/ en im actually studyin the express chinis sec 3 en 4 for next yr O's.LOL.hmm.kinda delusional nowadays too.seem to bi living in a mere blur world.i really don't find any point worryin bout him anymore.after all,i've done my part.its all urp to his choice.en mid year ish liek in...3 wks?
ohhs.
dhat reminds me.
my burthday ish in 2 wks
april 29 worhs
weEt` x)
burt i've gort a feelin no one gonna rmb x(
cus stress orf exams yups`
rather tired en stressed out myself too.
been slpin really lil
en stacy's startin to call me beeg-eyed panda T.T
hahas.dhat was lammeee gurl..
yawns.tiny roar.karnt wait for exams to bi over mans.
gona bi out evry single day
en finally gona go out with a few ppl dhat i've missed so much.
en yesh jasmine koh.
i rmb dhat our burthday ish on the same dayyy~
HEEE :))
we'll go out shoppin liek crazay
really.jush wait for these useless exams to bi overr =x
aishh.kinda depressed.burt whardever.its nort the time for me to bi depressed en wory over things anymore.for now,im jush gona try to forget evrything around me en evrything can realllyyy wait til 12 may onwards yupps.
sooo....errhs.
for now,tc ppl`
good luck for shittin out all yu know for those exams =x
&I thought...Nevermind.
-peace-
&I thought...Nevermind.
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