I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Im so depressed.i really really hate the date 29.really.its the biggest curse in my whole blurdy life.how could I have been so stupid to not consider the date that day?krap.i hate myself.i really miss him;I really do.he’s now in the “ignoring mood” to me now.en im abandoned by almost everyone.i need to talk to someone.i need someone to pour out everything that im feeling.now rightes,to prevent myself from tinkin any more things,Im actually putting all my energy en time on studying -.- krappily dottish.its like.i karnt take it much longer.burt wait,hu am I to say.everyone hates me.en now,Im startin the self-confined tingy with myself.im so nort gona think about him anymore.recieved a hate note askin me to please stay away from –censored- I mean like.wart’s yu ppl’s prob?i dun like him.me en are jush friends.so wart if we’re reeeaaaallllyyy super close.yu haf a prob,go get close to him.!! Dhats nort my business.he’s nort the one for me.so to huever hu’s actually cursing me now,please stop it.ehs,waiiit.nvms,contd`please curse me dhat I will die so dhat I’ll bi far far away from all these stupid problems dhats hella irritatin me.each time I close my eyes,I kip seeing yu.if yu wanna leave.please please take yur shadow away en everything orf yurs with yu.cus its really hurtin me now.Okays.whardever.i had enuff orf everyone.hope yu ppl haf a oh-so-beautiiful day.
-peace-
&I thought...Nevermind.