I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
i try to go on like i nv knew yu
im awake when my wurld ish half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without yu all im goin to be ish incomplete....
mmmm (: nowadays kind down.burt i've been keepin urp my smile.hee.history paper on tues so.damn.ROCKED.i was pratically smiling thru the paper en cherie asked if im retarded after the exam -.- so dottish.en EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! weeeeehs =) burt im kinda down yups.chinis paper thix time was okay okay bahs.nort so easy,burt not dhat hard anw.hais.en mdm ruwina or whardever her name ish,say i FAILED MY SCI T.T wow.like dhats the firsh tym in history.can i say im so darn not surprised?i guess i failed my geog too.liek duhs.half the class did.with my standard orf geog,how can i not be one orf dhem rightes?LOL.maths was shit too.burt i tink i passed by the skin orf my neck,as mrs wee likes to say dhat x) other subs were oh-so-good.haha.oh wells.
the past.all the memories.it's chokin me alive`i dun noe how long i can take it anymore.i noe i can't travel baq to the past.its rong rong rong.oh-so-rong.realy.damn myself.anw.im so sorry.to evryone.i jus feel like im letin EVRYONE DOWN.sory jinghan for not going out with yu cus im realy broke.sory ye han for hardly spending time with yu now.sory aby for being anti social with the class.i jus dun feel like it.en sory taufiq for yur confiscation orf hp.arghs.sory evryone anw.sory shi fu for pressurin yu too.sory fearmax for not being with yu gurls for the past few wks.sory weijin kor for worryin yu so much.sory meehan dhat i cant go with yu on sunday to church.sory ah gong for not being able to go sch en give yu yur dictionary.eEsh.sory to the whole wurld.i hate myself.i shuld bi dead =/ alrightes.
im alone again.isolated.no no.im isolatin myself.shuttin myself away in my thots.which are not good.i shuldnt be thinkin orf those.i shuld bi hapy smilin everyday.burt i cant take it anymore.by being superficial en smile like im okay en stuff.there's jus probs dhat arise on ME.damn.
peace everyone (:
i LORVE JAS DARHLYN X) haha!
i miss yu.im sory burt i jus do.
&I thought...Nevermind.