I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
yu will never know my life.so don't try to act like yu know me.
let's try to be friens.YEAH RIGHT.
dammit.im hopeless totally.
SCREWED-
&I thought...Nevermind.
hahaa.okays.so i went china for the ipw thingy on 27 may in case some orf yu duno cus i din realy inform all orf yu guys but the trip realy RAWKED alrightes burt i still miss sing x) its like the hotels are so nice laa cans,shanghai one can jump on the bed which josephine en wanfong went crazy jumping on it the first day there.l0ls.then went to suzhou en all those miao thingys en stuff which are erms,a lil boring burt stil the scenery there are nice.dhen suzhou hotel was kinda creepy which imee was so cute,rushing past the creepy corridor quickly to other people's room.hahaas.en josephine thot the bed would be bouncy which unfortunately NOT,so she landed with a thump on the bed en "ouchh.that HURT." LOL.dhen erms.sunday went to the song dynasty town thingy en it was quite fun yups.but the performance thing was so OBSCENE.gosh,disguisting.it should be rated NC-21 or smth like that alrightes.urghs.dhen we had fun going arnd bargaining prices for goods which grace exp had a fun time huhs.dhen we went to the sch beside it which was huamei to live in the hostel for the following 5 days.omg,honestly,yu wouldnt even NOE it was a sch unless yu walk into it en see students around kays.its like WOA,5 times way bigger than TK?dammit.its really beautiful with all the garden scenery around en their track was rather beegie en they even haf the WHITE HOUSE en the four statues orf america there kies!amazin.dhen the hostel rooms are rather spacious actually dhen me,nicole,imee,wanfong en josephine's room could link to aby they all room through the balcony.en believe it.the rooms in the hostel haf AIRCON.burt one thing.their water ish like MELTED ICE T.T they haf only limited time orf hot water like half an hr in the morning en 2 hours at night so all orf us gotta rush to shower at that time or get freezed to death by the super icy water.en the food there was....heh.most orf us didnt eat breakfast,lunch en dinner there cus we couldnt survive it en we survived mostly on carbonated drinks en cup noodles at 10 plus in the night?o_0 hahaa.then our rooms had so much mosquitoes en bees kies en we're like havin a field night evry day sprayin insect repellent evrywhere.LMAO.the small kids there are soooo cute but each time we walk around evryone is like whisperin en lookin at us non-stop en saying things like "ta men shi xin jia po ren!!!" en stuff like that -.- its like we feel super analysed en watched wherever we go cus they'll all stop en starrreee.en the last day was realy fun.the british ppl came,en we jus exchanged a few words en stuff yups.dhen we left.sobs sob x( dhen the next two days ish like total shoppin only x) haha! when reachin singapore,we were like,"my goodness,singapore!!!finally!!!!!" en i was liek going to kiss the floor which michelle kwara wanted to take a pic orf me doing dhat -.- bleah yu mich xp
mm.cohort camp.FUN(: great learnin experience too.jus a quicky summary.mm.rock climbing was realy like so damn fun(: dhen the river challenge which made me realise for the first time i could ACTUALLY get dhat wet en muddy.two pairs orf shoes were destroyed en so were my socks >.<>.< dhen evry now en dhen will hear the councilor,2D OYYEE!!dhen we'll go OYEEEE!! =x hees.super fun okays.but very rushed.dhen my slpin bag was infested with ANTS.hem hems*yu noe yur so responsible for it yu piggy xp hahaa.anyway,rather fun.campfire too.voice all gone =x en i had a heart to heart talk with a friend which im realy so grateful for.
so right.this two wks of hols with this two was rather fun(: heees.now.studyin time!!! >.<
tata-
&I thought...Nevermind.
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