I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
i need a miracle for my piano performance.
a damn miracle.
fast en quick.
or my years of practise will be gone.
anyway.yu.curse me all yu want.be nonchalant all yu want.yu still disguist me with her anyways.
speechless.
no words to describe this repressing feeling within me.
cries ;
let the tears just flow -
&I thought...Nevermind.