I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
is it enough to breathe?
tell me something;show me REALITY.the whole truth.
dhats whard i REALLY want.
mm.im fine.thot i was realy gona get into a HUGE bitch fit ytd burt no i didnt(: burt i wasnt realy in a good mood.today...im jus quiet.
im thinkin bout the things she said.en i wonder if all the things she said bout him could actually be real.en some stuff she said bout my past,it just went straight pierce;en hurt me.real deeply.i feel so...broken.im so afraid of loving again.en when i see him now,i thought to myself,"could this be real?can we realy be together?" i mean like.yeas.anyway.lousy day today.chuangren's comin baq to sch today(: wonder if he cums with tungling.mm.they're so sweet(: mm.there's jus too much stuff to tork about.mixed feelings running through.
it HURTS.
its PAIN.
i cant shake off the memories.tell me whard can i do.
btw,im sorry yehan.i didnt noe the msges was meant for me.if yur still angry bout dhat; i cant do anything can i?ohs,en mingjiang,wish ya luck for settling dhat prob(: thanks for everything anyway.yu really helped.
lousy day.lousy self.feelin lousy.end of x ME.
tata ppl.tc lots(:
mis ya bgf!
&I thought...Nevermind.
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