I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
yu thought of me only as a person you know;
regardless of what we were in the past.
the forgot all the close frienship;
you forgot it ALL.
im nothing to you now;
oh,so much less than a person you can call 'friend'
yur treatment used to hurt me
pierce me deep.
i never sayed anything;
i tried holding back what we had
but i failed.
you left,en never looked back.
we lost it;yu were the one who destroyed it.
i cant' say dhat you don't hurt me still
but im tellin yu this
jus 5% more,i'll be straight dammit over yu.
so keep up whard yur doing;stay FARAWAY from me.
pretend dhat i never existed;
en i would too do as i incline.
HA.he doesnt even noe im referin all this to him.
for this whole 7 months,he thought i was WAYY oh so over.
oh my,so insenstive.
but its okay,i noe your like dhat.i never minded.en i will never again too.im okay.i swore a year back dhat one day,i would move on totally from yu without memories;regrets or even any love or frienship.yu noe what?
i tink im reaching my goal.
let's just say the last goodbye in this life.
nothing would ever come back;
i don't love you anymore
whether yur a friend or the guy i used to fall head over heals with.
august 29;its bullshit to me.
i've only truely awoken...now.
you're NOTHING to me;
just like what i AM to you.
&I thought...Nevermind.