I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
i never expected to end it this way.it had been three months even though the official was 3 weeks.sometimes i just dont know what i will do without your love.but i guess i gotta learn huh.
i'll miss the way you always smile at me.the way you hold my hand.the way you always assure me everything would be fine.the way you always call me lil princess.the way you miss me.the way you can always make me smile.the way you grumble bout stuff.your voice.your sweetness.the way you laugh at the things i do.the way you always miss me.mostly,i'll miss the way you loved me.
the hearts.
the glow in dark stars.
the walk in the rain.
honey.
charlie and the chocolate factory.
bugis elevator.
520.
i dont know when i can walk out of this pain.the day you fall for someone else,will be the day i really lost grip on you...and just let you go.i've been a horrible girlfriend.maybe im just not girlfriend material or suitable for attachment.someday,i'll walk out of everything.
august 29.hurt number one.
february 24.hurt number two.
august 13.pain.
cancel LOVE.
i died.
devoid of emotions.
its OVER.cries.
"haha.i enjoyed your bitter sweetness lil princess...its ok..but ans me...will you feel better if you leave me..?" i said,"yes i would.knowing that you wouldnt get hurt anymore.."
no i wouldnt.i lied ytd.i dont want you to get hurt anymore.you deserve someone much better...
"ok then my princess...this is the last time i will call you princess...i told myself before...i will not turn back and fall for the gals i like before but for you its an exception...my doors are always open..you can come any time you want...k...understand princess??last three words..i love ya.."
im sorry.really.wait for me.i'll be back.i promise.just hold on.i will turn back.i love you.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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