I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
(Ooh,ooh,ooh, sweet love, yeah)
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby(We belong together)
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
saying to me"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
ain't even half of whatI'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, babyWe belong together
"Here i am." by marion raven.
I’ll protect you don’t be scared
No matter what I will be there
I’ll be gentle I’ll be light
These are the words you whispered in the night
Here I am
Here I am
Now I’m standing in the cold(everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul(from the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is i got to let you go
Here I am
Here I am
But where were you when I was scared
A broken promise left me here
A post-it note is what I’ve got
It says ”I’m sorry” but I know you’re not
So Here I am
yeah
Here I am
Now I’m standing in the cold(everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul(from the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go
Here I am
Here I am
There will come a day
when all of this is in my past
And there will come a day
when you’re out of my head at last
I’m not trying to fall
Damn it’s such a long way down
But here I am
Yeah yeah yeah
Now I’m standing in the cold(everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul(from the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go
And now I’m standing in the cold(everything is said and done)
(From the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know
Is I got to let you go
Here I am
Here I am
"Six feet under." by marion raven.
Six feet under, under my skin
There's a battle I know I can't win
You invade me and I surrender
Yeah, that's what I hate about you
Six feet under, under my skin
There is where your story begins
You were wanting, I was forsaken
Yeah
You came to me with words unspoken
I can't deny it, that I knew my glass would end up broken
(and that's how you got me)
I blame myself for being stupid
But I can't help it, yet I'm eating right out of your hand
And that's what I hate about you
Six feet under, touching my soul
From the moment we met, you I stole
You embraced me, and I believed you
Yeah
You came to me with words unspoken
I can't deny it, that I knew my glass would end up broken
(and that's how you got me)
I blame myself for being stupid
But I can't help it, yet I'm eating right out of your hand
That's what I hate about you
Hey, hey.
It's not that hard, just walk away
There's gotta be a different meaning
You came to me with words unspoken
I can't deny it, that I knew my glass would end up broken
(and that's how you got me)
I blame myself for being stupid
But I can't help it, yet I'm eating right out of your hand
(and that's how you got me)
Now's the time for my confession
Cause I can't take it, that you always be and always will be
Under my skin
yupp.dhat sumaries what im feeling.mm.
"ai wo hai shi ta." by david tao zhe.
"hui mie ai qing." by lin guan yin.
"jie tuo." by li jiu zhe
"bu de bu ai." by pan wei bo and xuan zi
"tian kong." by cai yi lin.
"sa si pi ya de tian fen." by lin jun jie.
mm.hearing these songs make me feel closer to myself.
what wrong with me anyways.
something cropped up again.
sighs.
as usual.
im so tired..
of everything.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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