I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
that you will never measure up to those people.
you must be strong,can't show them you're weak.
have you ever told someone something thats far from the truth.
just to let them think you're okay,make them stop asking?
i have.
i've just been sitting here.remembering.
glowing stars.
the hearts.
the boy and the girl.
the letter.
520.
ncc sea.
i've been listening to the songs.more memories come back.
bugis elevator.
bugis cinema.
charlie and the chocolate factory.
july 23.
august 13.
honey.
forget it.weiru.stop torturing yourself.zzzz' stupid tears.
by the way.im thinking a new url for this blog.someone help me.
oh,en everyone might like to know.im already back to the girl since august 29 in the past.oh,thats sooo nice.let's open champagne..(:
depressed.insecure.hurt.holding back tears.biting my lip.trying not to scream.JEALOUSY.yes,thats the crux of everything.bgf.you sure move on real fast.
feeling isolated&empty.without you ; but.i see you're doing fine.more than fine.okay then.i dont have teeniest right to say anything actually.go do what you want.im ready to bet by febuary,im nothing but just a empty name to you.so forget about july 23 even.thanks for showing me how to bleed.
don't deny my existence.please.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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