I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
i've been scribbling the whole day on a piece of paper.everything that comes in my mind.i walked around like a lost soul.just staring into space.replaying those songs over and over again,blasting into my ears,to my brain,down to the heart.
by the way.
i've been talking to my dad about going overseas.
& its fixed.after O's,i go.he making preparations already.(:
but bloody hell lah x( i wanted to go this year! or next year.but no,he dont want.
grumble.i need to get out of here.desperately.
before i hang myself.
oh,wish me luck for my piano xD
en besides moonlight sonata all three parts,im learning another one."pathetic" by beethoven too.im joyed. =) but something's missing in the music.terribly.i got scolded.ah whatever.
everything seems to be in a mess without you around.
i've lost every bit of strength&faith i ever HAD'.
i've lost it.permanent.
its something that i cant tell anyone cus i dont know how to.
i just want,to be alone.
no,dead.
today's supposed to be the fourth official month...23..520..
-cry.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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