I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
im gonna ask dad if i can get out of here earlier.
im sick of being here.
sick of living my life off here,dammit.
next year,im damn bloody gonna study hard.
&get that freaking good marks.
sighh.it'll help to keep my mind off stuff.
okay people.nerd weiru next year.
and i'll be gone.really soon.
here,i would like to wish sunny best of luck in getting into our sch.should be fine lah sunny. =) dont worry yupp.
im sick of remembering you.
im sick of sitting here alone,shaking in pain,crying.
im tired of everything.
im tired of having illusions of you around.
i hate myself,for turning around,trying to look around for you,expecting you to be just by me,but later,crumble,cus you're not there.
im tired of having my eyes swollen each time.
im sick of being so weak.
im tired of playing games.
ons&offs.
coming back and leaving again.
remembering and back to square one.
then try to erase everything all over again.
YOU.stay,far far away.
leave me alone.ALONE.
since you've walked out,or rather i pushed you out,please please.
don't.ever.walk.back.in.again.dammit.
don't try anymore.
i'll forget you.totally.
if ever there was to be a next time.if ever.you let me rmb you again.i'm just gonna stick you by my side,dammit.stick until i go overseas and come back,then i let you off.dont blame me if i do that.so if you dont want me to do that,GET AWAY.
suicide notes&butterfly kisses.
love.hatred.time.dejavu.
im pathetic.
im losing it.
losing control.
losing my humanity.
i dont know who i am anymore.
-cries.
thanks for killing my piano.the music,i used to have.literally clean cut.
beautiful letdown.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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