I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
firstly,i cant,don't remember what im doing at times.
secondly.god?if you have a heart,please just end it all for me now.stop the stupid suffering.
thirdly.when i go to my next life,please dont ever let me meet him again.29's okay though.
fourth.i hope while im busy getting myself out of here early,you'll look after him with them.
LAST.oh,please let me get involved in a car accident any of these days,so i can get my head hit,fall into a deep,long coma&get amnesia.so when i wake,VIOLA!i cant remember anything.& please.erase every single thing.From my family,to music,to friends,the whole past.every single person wipe out okay.wipe it nice&clean.
if all these things happen,or rather,the LAST wish with the most desire,i promise i'll be a good lil girl when i wake up from coma,& get 80 above for EVERY subject.yes,even maths&science.okay?OKAY.deal xD YES.i'll await for the big lorry truck for bigger hit impact. :D ooh.i cant wait.let's do a lil jaywalking,shall we.haha.(:
im laughing one moment,then i cry out loud the next second.wierd.mentally disturbed?no way.im perfectly clear of what i want now.& all i want,is that lil coma accident.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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