I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
One,when out of love,has LOTS of energy. -.- zzzz.namely,cher' kevin.i think he had tiff with his gf or smth,then BIANG.dance like so many hours straight.& duhh,we had to contd&follow until he says stop.he couldnt stop.then i was around like him.only stopped when i finally twisted my ankle =/ retard weiru.mm.had a major shopping spree,i cant rmbr when =/ cus isetan holding private sale to all cardholders&they only do it like twice every year.so those who has a isetan card will be given the invitation card.which my mum,irish&me got it.the sales are really good,cus the usually super ex stuff will go down by like 30-60%.it depends.but when me&mum got there,the queue was like O.0 WOW.this is the first i've seen such a long long queue.irish was long inside isetan already cus she reached earlier.while in the queue line,saw abby&******* walk past.hem.HEMM(: alrightey.so walked until foot got blister.reached home with lots of shopping bags.
then erm,one of the days,went to sch with auntie alvina to look for mr singh.but he wasnt in.but we chanced upon mrs lee (VP) though.she was really nice while auntie explained sunny's situation&stuff and mrs lee seemed quite interested cus she doesnt want to leave foreign students in the lurch.but our damned sch,has only ONE stupid lil vacancy at the moment.like HUH?!! wth.okay.why sunny should be accepted AT ONCE.
o1.his soccer is FABULOUS.training under fandi ahmad&tohari.
o2.he's a foreign student.
o3.his badminton's good.
o4.his piano is until the standard of (UK) trinity board examinations,grade 5.
05.in his whole report book of 6 years in pri sch,every page the comments is like OMG.so darn good lah can.
o6.he's in charge of bringing new students to fit in when in pri sch.
o7.he's a prefect.
08.he's ava head monitor.
09.he's freaking nice,friendly¬ racist like some.
10.he's hardworking.
11.auntie is willing to be counsel for our sch students&she's FABULOUS at that.
12.sunny's parents are willing to make a donation&support whatever sch activities the sch has.
HELLO?!??his conditions are the pratically the BEST that anyone can give.damn it lah.until now still havent give him reply.but we'll all know by 8 of jan(: &im praying my life away now for him,to GET IN XD he will will,MUST get in. *mumble prayers*
then i cant rmbr what else i did for the past 2 weeks.erm.oooh,i watched kingkong with teng last last sunday i think.until 1 in the morning at balestier.superr touching xD i love it.then,watched chronicles of narnia.Also watched the promise.that was with laine&stacy.
mm.nowadys,i LOVEEE THE PIANO.(: i jst forget who i am when im in the music.oh,&bi is soooo cute!aww.korean guys.
Some people always say "Amarantine." I used to so naively believe in it.However,as time goes by,i see truely what love is.Love's jst a devious lil game,something sacrificial.The more you desier,the larger price you pay for smth thats nvr meant to be yours.I always used to illusion myself,keep myself in denial by thinking,all those yesterday feelings will be lost in time.It nvr did though.To cry,scream,breakdown,bleed,lose faith,insecurity...etc. tainted my life greatly.It leaves a mark so deep,that i'll nvr forget.We're jst a beautiful letdown.Me&you?It'll nvr work.Our story ends here...i'll jst smile&go on.For you,jst go on with life,/without me at all.It's time,that we get on with life,forget the whole thing& slowly start giving others a chance.&jst let go on both of us...which'll nvr work.i'll forget all those things&stuff i used to think,do or know bout you.all the used to be(s).im sorry i had to game over us....mianhae.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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