I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
awwww.
i've missed then all soo much!
andrew bought smth for me&abby in new zealand.thats really sweet(: had a nice chat with him.ahhh.it feels good to be back there xD hee.
shaun,shouted "WEIRU!YOU'RE HERE!" when he saw me.ZZZZZ.KIDS.but C.U.T.E man!haha.i missed that kid lots.but he AH.he wacked,sat on my lap&pinched my cheeks today.=/ SOB.Auntie,i think shaun has the PERFECT makings of an abuser. =x then a new kid,Hakim.haha.his eyes are really nice(: but he SUPER blur.me and cher' pei shi was trying to teach hakim and shaun chinese.me,being the unlucky one.got SHAUN.Hakim was just staring into space while cher' pei shi was trying to teach him K2 chinese.& SHAUN.that BAD BAD KID.wacked me for direct answers.TSK.KIDS NOWADAYS.i got bruises!man.kids wack really hard.hell lah.&because of THEM'.i didnt manage to learn my physics much!cher' pei shi would be interuppted by them soon after she tries to teach me.ahhh.kids kids kids.i think cher' pei shi hair going to drop already.haha xD
then auntie teach history.and andrew had to knock his head three?no,four times on tha table.cus i could recite out the whole fall of russian monarchy thing without auntie hinting me.& i said it in SEQUENCE.so andrew was like.
andrew:"okay weiru.i give up.you're a genius man." (knock knock knock)
-.- i happened to be like a physcho these few days to study hard on it,andrew.heh.
irish gave me a long preaching session today.yes,my lady.i get it alrighte!geez.you're real whiny.& you never give up until you've said it a thousand times do you. =/
fii says im emo.not to worry lah fii(: i'll be finneeeee.
im sorry miswan! for not coming for editing today&tmr.
teng ah.are you LITERALLY out of your mind?!im afraid of HEIGHTS.those really high heights?remember?inverter?hello?no NO.not ESCAPE again.exp NOT with brian,sunny you bunch of guys.please T.T oh,that lil sea&MY SLIPPER incident is still on my mind okay.i had to walk back to the chalet BAREFOOTED.&no i dont need you guys to carry me -.- stupid stupid' brian.i have not thrown my slipper at him yet.& can we pretty please not go ride that car thingy?i almost killed sunny that time. =/ i think sunny has phobia of it now already.im a dangerous driver on the loose with blur brains.i crashed dunno how many times into...errh.everywhere.& THAT HURT.but chalet stay over with alcohol?BRING IT ON!:D YAY.
to that lil part inside me.stop pushing me.i'm going to snap.really soon.im really trying my best to hold everything inside now.&the feeling ain't fantastic.
cut my wrists.sleeping pills with tears.blood.
i hope,charlene&linda does a good job taking care of you...goh weijia.& that.you'll be over me by december 23..
&I thought...Nevermind.
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