I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
went to watch the memoirs of a geisha with mitchell on wednesday night.it screened free premier one week early at cineleisure.so yeah.it was cool. xD i loved it.then mitchell went home after the movie though he was unwilling to leave me there alone.LOL.i stayed at orchard after the movie jst walked arnd a bit in the rain then went home.reached home bout 12 plus i guess.then..erh.ytd had tuition with teng.stupid idiot lah he.irritate me whole lesson as usual. =/ auntie was laughing at us.zzzzz.oh yeah.then tuesday had lesson with sunny.sunny wasnt in a good mood cus of ice,but then halfway into the lesson,we all started to laugh and joke.cus we were discussing auntie's love life! ROFL.super funny okaye.seriously.even sunny laughed so hard until he fell off the chair.i did my stupid horse laughter again.HEH.was s'posed to go out with sunny,kay,mook and kwan on that day after tuition but i had piano.so yeah.but going out with sunny,brian,mook and kwan on this sunday though.(: nvr hang out with them for very long lerh.mm.later got british council again.meeting mitchell early for lunch/dinner.he hates cher' carver.zzzzzz' cher carver's handwriting is CUTEEE though.HAHA. =x
happy belated birthday to MINGJIANG!(:
oh,& happy birthday to ABBY! xD
mingjiang was ytd and abby is today,today! i owe you two a present yeah.anyways.wish both of you the best into this year yupp!
you're not him.you're the the goh weijia i loved.the july 23 i loved.im still hurting.i still tremble & falter at the mention or sight of you.i still cry.im unlike you,who's moved on,healed & reborn.i know you hate yourself for loving me before,for being weak for me.im sorry i caused you all the pain.all the fault,is mine.you gave me the best i could ever had.& i really loved you.im glad you're living your life well now,without me...from now on.we're no more than strangers.so what becomes of me,is none of your concern.whether i die,suicide...or gravely sick.its none of your fault or concern.its jst my own for not letting you go.for stressing myself.for...making myself ill under the happy hyperactive facades.the pain im going through is smth like hell.im jst like a lost lil child,scarred too badly to be healed.crippled already.SCREAM' break down.those ytd feelings...arent' lost in time.i'll take it to the last that i can.when i finally reach my limit....im sorry to leave here forever.please understand,that i had to let you go with no choice...
&I thought...Nevermind.
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