I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
oh,by the way.i jst realized that for the past few weeks,i have not missed a single downpour of rain.not a SINGLE one.counting the time each day,from when i leave sch.sometimes i leave sch walking in the downpour.thats the point! i realized how much self torture im inflicting on myself & im glad.this explains the fever.lol.
&I thought...Nevermind.