I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
i jst read came across someone's blog.i guess she does care in some way or another,but well,yeah.thanks.(: im not quiet in class,im jst tired.&nvr in the mood b'cos.......(.....)...yeah.i shall not elaborate but i think you know what im feeling somehow or another.im surprised on your b'day dedication to me cus you're erm.the last person i thought would do that cus i thought...you didnt really liked/hated me.i dont know if things changed between us b'cos you're close friends with him now or smth. (im not indicating anything here ),but yeah well.i dont know laaaaa.im not sure if things are cleared between us,maybe we need a talk some time yeah.maybe.so yup.thanks,girl.(: i'll,erm,try not to be acid weiru.HA HA.<3 alrighte.
mm.so today's a saturday! had A maths in the morning less than 10 people showed up though -.- zzzz.went with cynthia to pw & wait for yennying.then go for tuition.ahhh. Amaths/physics.screw.mm.met up with the usuals for lunch.hilarious :D ahaa.then had A maths tuition with cynthia,vanessa,sophia,limpon & michelle.after tuition me & michelle waited for our parents.goodness michelle,you ramble nonstop -.- see you talk bout yul,shin & goong so much >.<>KAREN!sweet,cute girl.i havent seen you for such a long time.you rebonded your hair huh.haha.china doll with china chinese accent.(: your smile as sweet as usual.no wonder so many guys still jio-ing you huh.i saw you i was like,"omg,KAREN!!!!".gaaak.you're becoming prettier^^
past few day's papers were pure shit.english paper 1 was fine.paper 2 was a lil screwed.lol,antwarfare.geog was,(.....),i'll die if i can pass it.stupid mcqs.history was cool.ss was plain DUMB.dont talk about it.chinese paper 1 was, xD! haha.E maths.oh man.paper one,do until very happy,then thought,"oh,FINALLY i can pass.".hello.this type of thought doesnt come to me often okay.it hasnt came for 2 years!HOWEVER.paper 2 came.i flipped to the first page.scanned through the questions,& stumped there.flip flip.then close paper,& muttered one word."DIE.".breathe in breathe out.then started to do.i left more than half the stupid,evil,demoralising paper blank.yeah.all thoughts of passing immediately dissapeared.E maths = SCREWED.so let's see.E maths fail.geog comfirm fail.i think i'll screw A maths too.three subjects.not good dammit.fuck.
23,you suddenly brought it up.it hurts.i cant explain what im going through/feeling.but what you dont know,wont hurt you.& you'll nvr know.
you: im sorry.i jst dont see the "couple" thing happening.sorry,my heart is on a permanent long holiday somewhere.i dont think i can get it back anytime soon...or at least,this year.
to that group : <3333333,for everything.thanks!
symptoms showing.its turning blueish,black,purple.fuck.
>rain :D numbs me,letting me forget who i am.momentarily.
&I thought...Nevermind.