I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
imee is 16 now.(: you can watch nc 16 shows proudly now,girl.(: well,i hope you'll always be happy okay,no matter whats going on in your life now.we dont talk alot,but i really care for you alot & you're one of the most trusted friends i have,i swear.you mean alot to me : D (that sounded les)ahaaa. okayyyy,steamboat last night at marina bay there was really....mad.very.with imee,abby,nicole,donna,jasmine,rachel,josephine,boon,nicholas,david,shearen& me.justyn couldnt come,some cell thing.we really made hell lot of noise in the mrt,& at the steamboat place.(competited noise pollution with 2 other tables,people at the other end side could hear us ,even.).rachel couldnt stop suaning,( she called me taiwan ambassador?!!) LOL.donna started the ICE WAR THING.jasmine teo,you ALSO.they tortured the living prawns.super hilarous,i tell you.one prawn actually jumped out of the soup & erm,sort of aimed for nicole.nicole yelled & jumped away.HEH.abby then told me they were here.i went to check,OH MY GOD.however it was only four of them.chang xu,kai lun,lin yi,zi wen & i think another guy from another sch or smth.anyway.i ran between two tables.lin yi looked up and stared at me in shock.chang xu was in the action of drinking his water but stopped halfway.kai lun saw me & the prawn that he was holding with the chopsticks dropped.( the prawn wriggled on the plate -.-).ziwen,turn,saw me,JUMPED AWAY.& started babbling dunno what at me.lin yi got scolded by his mum.they went to smoke,fuck.oh,they all know donna & jasmine though.they know donna as student leader & jasmine as.....the VERY FIERCE girl.ahaa.shall not say what experience they had with her.oh,i think i paralysed ziwen. xD i cant rmbr how many times i smacked him (maybe over 30) & lastly,(i was wearing heels),i stepped on his foot. (: he surrendered.jasmine keeps losing her wallet,panic period.i still find rachel absolutely hilarious in chinese. =x nicole & abby cabbed down all the way to suntec to get a cake for imee.
yesterday was totally fun.
today.went out again at 8 to meet that bunch.jst reached home.funnnn!talking to weijia now.ayeeeee,hope you & her will end up jst fine alrighte.i'll pray for you.haha!^^
- you're still angry with me.im sorry.i do care,really.but it jst not the way you want it,& you know why.besides,i dont like smoking.you get my pt.
> cutting you off from my heart totally is like cutting off one my legs,not jst having it paralysed.but its for my own good,i have to,its useless for me to keep staying around you when you're so obviously in love with someone else.i have to get rid of the place you have in my heart.it'll be better this way in the long run.you've pressed my buttons enough,sometimes you press them continously in a frenzy,making me lose it,causing the cuts,the hurt repeatedly.the trouble is,how do i make a long run with only one leg?great.nice move,weiru.
you know what?if i could prove myself&reality wrng about everything,i'd be really,really happy.
/you.unspoken words.whats going on,really,between us.i dont like the feeling you're giving me,this....feeling that im unsure & cant make it out what it is.it scares me.you're pushing my buttons,unknowingly.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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