I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
school has been perfectly hell tiring,but...not as bad as i imagined it to turn out.thank goodness :] i managed to finish all the hols hmk before the respective lessons,so yahhh.im off the hook. ( for now. ) however,i really missed school.haha.seeing friends & everything else.im going to mug very very hard this time.
mm.im one contented happy lil girl :D since ytd.mm.i told li feng the truth already.haha,he's like OMFG.OMG OMG OMG.WTH.haha.his typical lil boy "WTF,YOU MUST BE KIDDIN ME" reaction.after sch ytd,geog remedial was cancelled.(: then changxu asked me help him with his sec 2 ipw pp,so i jst helped out.aiyahhh,you ah.you think too much,& yeah,im surprised you figured everything yourself,smart one :] but you're trustable...soo...shrugs.its fine.thanks for the silent understanding.(: mm.then ah gong msged to say he was in school already,and yeah,he busied himself with the ncc sea stuff while me & rachel waited for him & naiyu from 4.30 until 6.45(??) -.- rachel and i talked alot of random/gossip stuff.haha.& that girl ponned sch today =/ so yeah,they took bus with me to parkway as i had tuition at mavis and ah gong suaned rachel until there's no end of it.haha.wild boar & small girl.tsk.zzzz' so yup.havent seen the both of them for so long,its great to see them,finally. : D oooh.someone walked past me while we were at the bustop. (........)sigh,he was ignoring me on purpose seeing ah gong there & yeah,i had to call him to say BYE first.wth.
today was generally good.slept like what,3 hours ytd night due to the fact i had to rush a bunch of sch work,like english essay & stuff.didnt feel very well in the morning,skipped past P.E.i swear,li feng's two sec one god sisters are soooooo cute. =x awhh.talked to them during my P.E as they were having recess so yeah,sorted a few things out.things are....generally okay now. : D more than okay actually.all the tension,CLEARED.woohoooo.i knewwww it.so after sch waited for them to finish their lunch and all be guaiiiii & go home.but kailun & ziwen had maths remedial.li feng at band.& the rest were different routes from us.so left with me & yangxu who simply didnt want to wait for ziwen & kailun to finish.cos i was dropping dead any time & needed to crash home to bed,yangxu needed too.so we left without notifiying them!( heh. ) we talked alot about taiwan,(where its OUR home. : D ),& alot of random stuff.he still seems like a lil kid to me,regardless of his scary height.haha.
oh,did i mention junjie can write super good rubbish chinese compos?they get very high marks from ah ber okay,& its actually jst his usual crap -.- & linyi,DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO WRITE CHINESE COMPOS.claim yourself to be taiwanese.grrrrrrrr.
btw,how do i chiong read finish a book,& come out 6 different ideas for literature essays by saturday? its pratically suicidal.li feng,you're trying to let the whole world know ah.dumbbbb! =x
> my love for you was blind.
> wtf,why are you such a bitch?
> never thought i'd feel this way,never thought we'd be here.
> & i couldnt make you see it.
> can't you hear my heart beat fast,i want this to last.
> no more conflicts,disappointments & doubts.
> i can't describe this feeling.
> stop being stupid,& get out of the past ONCE & FOR ALL.
> its' 29 today. o.0 mm.1 year 10 months passed.cool.(:
> at last i knew and for the first time,i understood.
> to meet,to know,to love and to part -that's the saddest tale of the human heart.
one,its like a dream come true.
two,just want to be with you.
you've done it.i've seen the proof,more real than anything.thank you. :]
- ...cos i believe in you.
one thing,why the hell do i keep getting mixed up with ncc people?only that its not sea again this time lah.but still,wth?!!
crossroads.its a matter of choice & following my heart,not giving a fucking damn what other people may think or see me as.
He waved his hand saying,"See you!" but i knew he meant "Goodbye."
HAIYAH.NO MORE OF THIS BLOODY EMO LIKE HELL SHIT.
OUTTTTTTT.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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