I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
im down with very high fever of 41 consistently,throat infection,since friday night.wanted to jst ren,&go for band performance,but well,im a loserrr,i couldnt even stand properly,wasnt even fully awake.haiiii.so had to cancel with rachel & ah gong on lunch.sorry!im coughing like shit,my throat's tearing apart,dammit.vomited blood on sunday morning,which made me go to A&E changi for checkup.yeah,almost got myself a long term place in the hospital rooms but haha,i got out of it :D so yeah.got mc for the rest of the week.but might be back in sch on thursday or friday. ( hopefully )
its like,so crystal clear.
people who really cares; & who pretends to,who cares for the sake of caring/doesnt care.
mmm.i guess i knew who were in which category for quite some time.yeaaah.so no disappointments here.kinda expected.Ha.but i did get a few surprises.(: hmm.thank you,to those people who sent me a msg to show that you care,though we're not uber close ;got me really surprised,a few of you.(:
> what's love for you?
> LA LA LA.
> HAHA,suckerrrrr.
> upcoming tests! =/
im not going to die laa,li feng.dumb! =x
&I thought...Nevermind.