I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
mm.i havent seen ali for quite some time.thank goodness for him,he's like my translator.heh heh.moving on to vienna pretty soon.i dont know how we're gonna get there though,sounds still a far way from here.mm,saw Elaine today after like what,so many years?ouch,its been since pri 4-5.she's like,one super class italian lady.you see,this italian-ish in here,(she's looking very italian with dark long wavy hair & dark eyes with a serious pretty face),tall, & not to mention,style,class.i almost couldnt recognise her.i mean like,hello?im already sec 3 now.we havent seen each other for fucking long.she couldnt recognise me,i couldnt either!first thing we saw each other,we jst smiled...like,we know the past is behind us,everything is over& all's forgiven.we had a good hug.& NOW SHE'S TALKING TO ME IN ENGLISH. ( with the italian accent -.- omg.) you know what,here,everything looks/sounds so foreign to me.ali & elaine are the only ones actually still able to speak languages I UNDERSTAND. phew.(: elaine has the italian woman fiery temper in her. -.- i jst realized that.she's like,scolding ali in a stream of rapid italian & i swear i can see fire in her eyes.scary.i jst stay out of the way & contd my blogging.
23,i read your blog.lol,it wasnt meant to be dramatic.to say the truth,i didnt wish to see you,for fear of emotions running high within me & .....well,you know.im very sorry for that.anyway,you wont need me,you should know that.you'll forget me eventually soon.im jst....your xmm (: you have many other xmm's to care for & nag after lah,im jst one less off your load.haha.mm.if i actually jst contd staying in vienna,then..well.i guess,in a few months time,i would probally have totally disappeared from the face of your earth & with a long time,i would get over everything. ( i hope! )
you,i'll be seeing you in a few days although i have absolutely no idea why the hell are you coming to find me all the way from guangdong -.- you retard! but oh well,i could use some company(: im not sure about anything so dont ask lerh,alrighte.give me proof,not promises.i jst dont believe in it anymore.
I TELL YOU,I JST FOUND OUT SMTH.italian people are very warm : D as in,they make you feel...homey! ahaaaa.unlike singaporeans. =x jst drank plenty of wine.no,im not drunk,dammit.
> oh,cos im superrrhuman me!
&I thought...Nevermind.
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