I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
which means,i gotta chiong alot of hw.great.
met the remaining people of the china grp in sg right now jst not long ago.jst walked & talked around ECP.
im feeling so fucked up,so wrecked,RUINED.i want to SCREAM,SCREAM,SCREAM,hurl things,hurt myself,hit myself till i bleed & die,cut off all my damned fingers,kick the piano,crash it.
> shit.also.i lost the two earrings he'd made for me on V'day.i jst cant seem to find it.fuck fuck fuck.wth.i could kill myself.im so pissed,beyond sanity.
-PROOF,NOT PROMISES.how are YOU any different.tell me.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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