I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
> there's alot of drama going around.
> jasmine,i love you alot alrighte,always here for you : D
> S 11(:
> omg,gilbert is world renowned john woo's disciple.
> doesnt that make me john woo's grand disciple?!! LOL.
> haha.john woo & his doves/pigeons scenes -.- well well.student like teacher.
> s 11 was wayy cool.it was m18.
> IMEE WAS SO GLAM that i am still very UNUSED to it.ROFL.
> i liked the story linkage,very good.
> the girl is.so.pretty! ahhh.
> nerd to wild play girl.HMMM.
> middle fingers.lol.
> " this is my fucking life.im an ordinary human who goes to this fucking 12 hour job & whole day do nothing but fucking cut vegetables and you get fucking shitted by your boss,& if you're unlucking you get fucked by the customers as well,and if i had any fucking balls i would have fucking gave him a slap and ........." to be continued. ( sorry its super vulgar,but its one of the dialogue from the passage.count the number of f words.its hilarious when you hear it,me & imee were staring at the screen. )
> haha,hokkien vulgarities sound funny.
> suitcase -.-
> the difference between ordinary human & heroes is the humans dream while heroes dream & LIVE IT(:
> what is yours will be yours,what is not,will NEVER BE YOURS.
> "WRONG.the morale is,there's nothing worse on the earth than eating shit."
"...im s-so-sorry,but how does shit taste like??" very very DIAO.
> pretty pretty necklace.
> ahh,im going on a huge shopping spree after exams.watch me : D
> gilbert looks like a monkey =x
> DORAEMON AH PEI ROBBER. ROFL.
> da xiong is doraemon's best friend -.-
> red fur dog.LOL.
> b cos of youuuu~
> well,two can play this ignoring game,lets see who wins.
> the same secure feeling.
> i fucking give up on you.
> lies lies & nothing more.
> i thank lin an for everything and all the time he has spent to be there for me.
> i thank lifeng alot for always listening to me and cheer me up with his big innocent eyes & making me laugh with his childlike innocence. (he is so kiddy cute =x) best xiaodi & da jie always,alrighte.love love love.
> awh alex,dont cry,i promise i wont use lin an as your dai ti ping anymore! LOL.
> nope alex,you're not a clown,you're my private entertainer.
> nicole,i thank you for helping me realise things & all those short talks.
> whats going on btwn the two of them.EWWWW. o.0
> i dont think i can tolerate much longer.
> i think i've been the nicest to you in the grp.im sure i showed you nothing but kindess but behind my back you still went on your old ways.i shouldnt have trusted you to be grateful or to be trusted,bitch.
> i shall jst REN for all i can.
> rachel! yep,your 'SOON' was in fact,rather soon after all.okay lah,i shall give you credit,cute one.
> haha tinghui.i agree.her famous last words -.-
> some sec 2 girls are very....despo -.- oh my gawdddd.sick.
> i cried today.
> karen,thanks to listening to me.& praying with me.(:
> condition from bad to worse...fuck.
> what matters is the present,the past is long gone & will nvr come back.the future...isnt here.yet.
> stupid darence,what suspended.im saying FACTS.
> i love mildred yap now.amazing huh.
> LAKEHOUSE,CLICK & LADY IN THE WATER.must watch(es)!
> well well.here comes all the tears & cycle of depression.again.
okay,yup updated quite a bit.anywayyy.I MISS BRIAN & SUNNY SO MUCH LAH CAN. =/ awhh.i always stop & think,without their help over this past one year,this very rough patch in the midst of everything hapening,july 23 & all those other stuff,what would i have became.without them,what would have happened to me.i am so thankful for all the time,help they sacrificed for me,like real brothers.i love you guys. <3333 cant wait for monday! (: take care alrighte.
contacted gerry gan today too : D we had quite a talk & stuff.meeting up with him after common tests.his treat(: imee,you in?gerry says he misses us.awhh,so sweet right.i miss gerry so much too.i honestly hope that he would come back & help us out in all those filming good times again,& we have so much fun with all those stuff,but yeah,cant be helped,he cant.so....sigh.but oh well,keep in touch. : D i dont care,you HAVE to come back for our camp,miswan,taufiq are all leaving,HOW CAN YOU NOT BE ARND HUH.oh,& NO MORE ACCIDENTS OKAY.you & mortocycles & hospitals.tsk tsk tsk.everynow & then talk to you always in hospital.break toe,fracture hand...etc dunno what. -.-
i miss my AH GONG GOH WEIJIA ALOT AS WELL.to him,sometimes i kept thinking how i would have became too,if without his help since sec 1 august.ever since knowing him,we jst really clicked and he nvr failed to help me in anything.always listen to me cry cry cry like dunno how many times,talk to me with those very zai stuff.haha.(: then sadly,things jst happen and we end up here.but we had our experiences & we learnt from it,stronger too.i really really am very grateful to you,for the huge impact you made on my life,the huge change & everything.no matter what im feeling or what,i still love you all the same cos you're my AH GONG : D thank you,for all the times.memories are a part of the past.but we had our sweetness & biterness yeah.thank you thank you thank you for changing me so much,guiding me along,never ever stop believing or giving up in me when everything was so bleak.
ookay.smth's wrng with me,sorry lah! but wellllll.yeah yeah,im sure you'll go a long way & survive,bitch.ha.go on & try to get your sympathy votes.i'll jst sit back here & get entertained by your pathetic hilarious acts.i dont mind. ^^ sorry if im mean,but you're so much meaner.abby,nicole,imee.love love loveeee.thank you for everything,the three of it.yeah imee,you know it always becomes like thattttt~ lol.
OUTTTTT.(:
&I thought...Nevermind.
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