I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
OMFG/ why is it happening again,& again,& ALL OVER AGAIN.
hey.i trusted you not to.but well,you still did.thanks for telling me in the middle of ytd night -.- to be fair,its not your fault.you are the victim i guess.& im sorry for being so ignorant.so,im promising you that we'd still be friends yup(: smileeeee!
people like alex,lifeng,gary,junjie...etc are all acting like im going to die any moment.haha,no im not.im just sick,a more serious case of sickness with internal bleeding.mm.thanks to all the people who's been msging me,jst to keep me company.yeah,i know im missing lots of lessons =/ & hell,i have A maths test on monday!great.i know nothing that is going to be tested cos i missed out everything.ahhhhhh.
a question that's been bothering me lately.what are best friends for?no,how can you define who's your best friend?well,now thinking,i dont think i have a best friend,anymore.maybe i treat her as my best friend but well,she doesnt think of me the same.im jst a casual friend to her.or either she's jst too busy.either way,we're drifting apart so much,we dont know what's happening in each other's life.&i tend to worry whats happening to her in her life & stuff.well,i guess she doesnt.yeahhh.sigh.
> i never believed it possible.
> ah gong's words on his blog has been bothering me,& im starting to think maybe he's right.
> things are okay,for now between the three of us : D
> im very very tired of everything.
> look,im jst a kid alrighte.
> dammit,why is everything bothering with me so much?
> the stupid ignoring game again..sigh.
> a huge big fat disappoinment.
> over,over &all over again.
> anythinggggg;
> you're getting underneath my skin.
>
&I thought...Nevermind.
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