I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
well,things to update about.i ran away from home ( is that an understatement? ) whatever.anyways.life is always changing track for me,i cant predict what happens next.some random short updates coming up.
firstly im back home. ( hallelujah. ) secondly, ( thats whre the really sweet part comes in ),im going to get shipped back to taiwan end of year.awww,how sweet is it?i totally cant wait,ha ha.
yeah you heard me.shipped back to taiwan.your ears aren't failing you.dont wanna elaborate it here.anything,ask me personally,i'd be glad to rant at you.sorry if i do snap.
in this month i've been away from home,i wanna thank alot of people who has been by me,understanding what im going through.people like abygail,tinghui,mr ng,cynthia,mitchell,brian (bc ),jielin,jasmine,imee,richny...etc.
teachers who have been incredible,mr vincent tan,ms ada tan,ms karen wong,ms seah yen sin.
some specific people...
nicole ng.i never knew how close i could be with you till that time we went marina sq for shopping.we got alot close in these few wks and i want to say a big thank you.you've been there for me,no matter accompanying me or whatsoever.you've been great,hope things will stay this way between us always.lots of love <333 ( i still cant believe you saw me cry at katong. )
goh weijia.i cant thank you enough.look at what you've done for me since sec 1.you jst keep on helping me,keep on being there.but whatever it is,both you and i know....well,yeah.you read the letter.im through being so dependant on you.i cant live my life on that way and.......hmm,you know.thank you for everything,really.btw,i liked her.(: hee.she's a sweet girl,dont bully her.
brian & sunny.haiyah.you two brothers.i cant thank you two enough.you guys helped me out so much in no matter what problems i had.the bond is....amazing.i cant say enough thank you's.whatever it is,rmbr,you two are deeply appreciated in my life,i cant imagine how i would be like now if not for the both of your help & guidance for this once year plus.(: love love.
irish & teng.you guys rock my world and you guys know it.what you all have done,is more than enough.thank you,for jst being there,for accompanying me always.you guys are the best. <3
the china group.oh why the hell do i keep calling you all "china grp".sounds kinda wierd eh.anyway,it so...crazy to feel and know what you guys have done for me since march this year only.you guys help me built up my confidence,tried to find my faith with me,and always being there silently when i needed help even though i wouldnt say it.exp alex,changxu,kaileun,lifeng & lin an.thank you thank you.things would have been so different w/o you all,many things would have changed.i stood up from failure again & again thanks to you guys.you guys never cared what thought or said,all you guys cared was my welfare,that i was happy.you guys have always respected me alot and always tried to go my way.i really appreciate everything,& hope this bond between all of us will stay.
okay,enough w/all the yakking,im heading to ZOUK tonight w/ one of my best girlfriends.its been a super long time,hit the drinking : D awh,cant wait.love.
in going to start the brainwashing drinking again : D screw everything.
& afterall,there's always taiwan for me...yeah?getting shipped at eoy.cool.
kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me.
-she's everything im not.
i hope one day,i can tell it to your face that,i loved you.past tense,boy.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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