I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
ahhhhh.well.hey,dont start insulting when you dont know much.cos i sure as hell know that no friend of mine knows me totally &everything besides bgf ah gong & a friend of mine not from TK.so...if you're insulting on what you see on the surface,go on then,i dont really care.you can try to turn all my friends against me,i dont give a damn.cos i know true friends will stick by me no matter what.(: so yeah.im not very affected by it.
i move on,whatever it is,on my own.i did it myself w/ a lil help along the way from some friends.look,whoever you are,i have been trying to change,trying to stay away from ANYONE,jst incase i ANNOY someone w/ my uh,lifestyle&actions?i give way.i give in.so dont push it too far.i have mistakes,yes.& look,its not like i've been doing anything lately to provoke.wth do i do,everyday after sch i have been rushing off to tuition & to study.thats all.its not like i interact w/ anyone or what thats why people get pissed off.i dont understand how in the world can anyone get pissed off w/ me when i dont even much talk or hang out w/ anyone recently already! so whats the pt of all this huh,telling me to change my mistakes or anything.if you dont like me,then stay away.i will do so too,dutifully.i am not that whiny,complaining naive girl i was a few weeks ago,i am not going to start my series of moans about this friend,that friend.yes,i admit that was really lame.therefore,i am changing it.
let's make lives better for everyone.stop all the stupid insults.at the most,if you realy dislike me,jst dont care bout me at all.at least then,i will get the pt.
> i'll whisper satan's words of love to you.
maybe <3
&I thought...Nevermind.