I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
friendship.its a scary yet wonderful thing actually.friends are undeniably,one of the most important in one's life.friends act as our strong pillars who are there to support us in times of hardship,always supporting no matter what.however.you also,can never know when a friend turns against you,when this pillar of support breaks.for all you know,this 'pillar' might be made of glass.or even plasticine,that can be easily damaged,so fragile.plasticine can change its shape according to how we mould them or maybe an accidental touch will change their shape.same goes for friendship.thats how friendship works.exactly like a plasticine.
i've gone through alot on friendship,in my opinion.i had enough seeing all the ugly sides of friendship & not too long ago,i really snapped & jst didnt care bout whatever bullshit & distanced myself.i still rmbr cynthia's words.i will nvr forget them.i've now learned.there is no such thing as a perfect friendship w/o bitching or each's own hating views bout the other.can you say that you dont bitch?even if you dont,can you say that you dont bitch bout someone ever in your own lil heart?you dont have secret hating views bout someone but you still act all good in front of that person?you cant.this,is human nature.we are all hypocrital in some way or another,no matter for good or bad.if we dont have all those ugly sides to us,oh my,this world would be perfect,everyone would be having a golden halo above their heads,good samaritans huh.total load of bull.
there is no perfect friendship that has no bitching in it or any flaw.cos that would be impossible.we humans,have our hates & likes.in some way,maybe due to irritation,the other may irk us,only at that pt of time.but after that we're okay already.why do we bitch?at times,we dont even know.thats what cynthia said to me.i didnt exactly understand her words until now.yes,sometimes we bitch even w/o knowing why the hell we do it for.is it really b cos we dislike that person?or isit b cos we're influenced by others,by other's thinking.we are all hypocrital,let's face it.
okay.i dont want to elaborate any further.bye.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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