I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
> hey now,don't dream its over.
> this is going to the first time that im away on a 23rd ever since july 23'05.well.
> i wish for things that i dont need.
> great,let's jst waste time then.
> when you looked into my eyes,& its like that.
> nothing in this world can stop us tonight.
> &its like im walking on broken glass.
> such a beautiful smile,pity it couldnt stay long.
> stonger than your sympathy.
> i need to let go of the past & its habits.
> aldo heels! =/ & that mango skirt.
> enough bullshit.
emotions are on the verge of spilling.im afraid.there's this wall in your heart i can't cross over.whats it going to be like.how are we going to become if this contds.i refuse to think about it.w/ all the past mixed up in between.okay,im going to resist the temptation to drink & stuff.the last i drank was a huge major disaster.damn.& i guess this is called stupidity.not to mention denial on my part.sigh.
<3
qiao qiao gao shu ta.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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