I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
> damn,GUYS.
> ...you can't make use of my feelings to help you do favours &then treat me as nothing when you don't need my help.fucking asshole.
> im thinking more &more about it everyday.
> i promise we'll go get you a whole new wardrobe of clothes someday okay,weijia? (: lol.you &your sudden liking for shopping -.-
> sound of music.
> very,very...off color....
> thank you,lin an.for everything since i came back to sg. <3 stop worrying bout me,i wont' do stupid stuff.
> ...playing water at beach becomes suicidal -.- gah.
> ...it's jst different,get it.
> fucking jerk,stop being such an ignorant blind idiotic bastard.fuck.
> there's a limit to patience.
> mcflurry icecream! cheap &less calories huh,tinghui. (:
> my memory is deteoriating more &more by each second.its crazy.
> what the hell is wrng w/ me..
> if you any bit of a HEART,you wouldnt' be treating me this way.im not someone for you to look for only when you like,&then later throw aside like dirt.i dont have to answer to your calls & get lost when you ignore me.im not a dog either,fucking bastard.
> i miss those girls.
> whre d'you go,i miss you so.
> i would give anything...for everything to return to normal.please.
> yup,i will be fine. :D yes you're right lin an,im superwoman &you're only human.haha!
> nights w/o sleep at all.
> i look like a vamp,wtf.
> nicole,charlotte's web! :/
> sch reopening already.sec 4 :( nooooooooo.
> after erasing you from my life,who would ever believe that such a person like you had ever appeared in my life before.
> 5 glasses of 40 percent alchohol.
> wang zi,xiao jie & ao quan! omg omg omg.call me when you guys are here. <3
im like a fool who's too sure.
seriously.
im not going to be so stupid &blind anymore.
now that you're gone,
what's left of us is this...song.
> wu ke qun,ming tian guo hou.
23 stars,i doubt you fucking even rmbr.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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