I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
sch has been absolute hell.all the pressure talks,teachers lecturing...oh dear.tests coming up & supplementary scheduled all the way to like term 2 already.everyday after sch is booked FULL.sigh,let's pray that this year flies fast yeah.i shall piaaaaa hard in the meantime(:
> & the phrase " if you love me,don't go" ,is absolute bullshit.exp you,you are no position to say it.not at all,boy.
> if that's so ,why don't you tell me face to face & deny my accusations?
> & all i can do is watch & wonder whre the boy i knew had gone.
> &then you'd realise that everything you did to me was wrng.
> smth's wrng,but what's wrng.
> white flag.
> tmr...
> whre's all my faith now?
you gotta understand
all this has to end
cos i don't wanna wait for you anymore
can't take it anymore.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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