I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
im not a sparetire,if i were to be with a guy,i have to be first piority,get that straight.yes,i admit.i can't let you go,but i WISH to,really.if you were thinking this whole thing to be revenge on your part in due of how i was blind to you last time,then fine.you've achieved what you wanted.so now,please,let me off.it's painful enough to have to hang out&see you every schooling day &sometimes weekends cos we're in the same clique of people.its worse when you jst ignore me or treat it as im invisible,not there.&the worst part is that sometimes you would suddenly treat me so nice like the old times,making my hopes rise uncontrollably&later you'd revert back to your usual cold tactics towards me,leaving me hanging alone like a stupid fool wondering what had gone wrong.
Thank you for the tears tonight.
&at least,i know that your sweetest smile was once for me only.
thats enough for me.
Too,thank you for lunch this afternoon.
maybe,its the last time we'll ever be able to be this way.
Thank you ziwen&lifeng for trying to talk me out,comforting me &knocking some sense into me.lifeng,im sorry you feel bad that you can't do much to help me or make me feel better.but don't be,cos you've done alot for me already,really.ziwen,thank you,for everything.
最后的微笑,有泪水滑落的线条和祝福的味道.
lovers to strangers-
&I thought...Nevermind.
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