I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
I'm really sorry for neglecting alot of you guys cos of my busy schedule &bad moods.
Wanzhuo : I'm really sorry for not talking to you for weeks & stuff,neglecting you.I know you say you don't mind &everything but well,I feel bad about it.I didnt know things were happening &when i read your blog just now...I was surprised at some stuff & wondered how come you didn't tell me as you usually would.Then i realized it wasn't that you didnt want to,it was cos i was never busy whenever you said "Hi" online or any other time you find me in school.I've been a bad friend,& I'm sorry.When i get my life& everything back on track,I'll dig out time solely for you,I promise.Take care girl.
There's alot of other people like...Tinghui,Justyn,Lin an,Lifeng...etc.I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you guys when you all needed to talk to me.&Rina! Cheer up girl,I'm behind you all the wayyy. : D
Oh well.I am going to pass my physics tmr,for the first time since I moved up to upper sec last year -.- I must& I cannnnn(: Be positive,weiru,come on.The thought of geog test on wednesday makes me want to cry in despair cos I still cant get the hang of physical geog,&the further thought of A maths differentiation test on friday makes me even more depressed than i already am,zzzzzz.Nvm,I'll just...do my best.At least,try.
I miss chinese lessons siah,lol.
Abby,Nicole,Changxu,Lin an,Tinghui,Lifeng,Junjie...Thanks for everything,all the advices &helping me settle down emotionally these weeks. <3 You guys are the best.
STUDY! (:
Good night people.
&I thought...Nevermind.