I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
My life seems to be getting more balanced&studies seem to be getting on track,slowly.(: I kinda like this feeling of being so busy&packed fully all the time,non-stop studying & just working hard for 0'levels.Crazy?I dont know,heh.Just feel...very self fufilling,thats all.Maybe I like the way everything is now cos it stops me from thinking too much &wasting time on things that are not worth it.The only thing is that I really need to do something about my sleeping hours -.- I'm like some nocturnal animal that gets hyper/super wide awake &very motivated to study like mad while I'm damn dead/tired in sch in the mornings. -.- How dumb.I need sleep =/ I see dark rings forming under my eyes already,damn.
Special shoutout.
JINGYI
Hello Jingyi!(: Hope you're feeling much better after the talk & everything yeah.Thanks for being concerned about me &those words of encouragement.Yay,great minds think alike : D Just rmbr I'll be there for you anytime you need someone to talk to or anything,just gimme a call or msg me okay?Don't look down on yourself or anything,trust me,you're the best! You're a really nice &super uber pretty girl that everyone loves okay! (Sylvia&Yanting,agreed?!!) Look,I see them nodding their heads,heh.Take care okay,I'm around for you yah.^^ Lots of <3,you rock too! Keep on striving,you're strong&smart enough,you can survive this bullshit.(:
&I thought...Nevermind.