I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
This is getting so incredibly stupid.
&Look here asshole.
It's been so long,I've tried too many times to count,& all I met was your wall of cold ignorance&indifference to me.
FINE then.
I'm throwing away every single bullshit we ever had,including the friendship you idiotic faggot.
You're making me do this.
When I get over you,don't come to me w/ that "Oh,Let's start from friends again" smile.
No.Such.Thing.
You had a chance for months to make your choice,too bad.
Well,now you've lost that privilege.
Cos' I'm walking away,from you.
Everything comes w/ a price.
If forgetting,throwing away the friendship we ever had could make me get over you,I will.Cos anyway,you don't even value the friendship we had,isn't it?
But when I'm done dumping it all emotionally,there'll be no such thing as 'friendship' existing in my dictionary w/ you.Cos I'd have cancelled all the friendship feelings i used to harbour w/ you too.
So now i've made my bloody pt clear.
Go on,hide all you want,run run!
Run as far as you want,
Really.
I don't care anymore.
No,I'm too tired to care.
I'm through w/ letting you get to me.
Checkmate.
HAHA.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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