I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Still very...very dazed.I feel like a living walking zombie now.
& I still feel like absolute crap.
Gave some people the attitude today...moodswing turned worse after recess.Sorry lifeng,that I ignored you when you asked if I was okay.I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone or even see...anyone.
But no matter,I'm feeling much better than I did a few days back already &everything.I know some of these people are probably never going to see this...but well.
Thank you,wanzhuo firstly.You always asked if I'm okay &nag at me to rest/sleep/eat...etc.Everytime even when I said I was fine,you would shake your head & ask me not to fake strong,&that i must take care of myself.I'm sorry I've been such a lousy friend to you &everything,for not being there for you when you needed me,for not having enough time to talk to you...etc.You've never minded &i know that you &lifeng always talk about how I am & how to make me feel better &stuff.You ah..... :/ Thanks so much girl,you made me feel better today with your jokes,incessant chattering& spastic doings(: Our two artwork cans! Two for the price of one,seventy cents! : D Hehe.Thanks for buying jelly for me when you saw me at the table,how tired I was & how..."depressed'' you said I looked.Thank you,too for calling up lifeng once you saw me in that state to ask him bout what happened to me &asking him to go find me &talk to me so that I would feel better to whatever you think was bothering me.All these small actions on your part just to make me feel better,makes me smile &feel comforted to have a friend like you.Thank you,once again wanzhuo.Love!
@#$@*~!!!!! & wtf,GOH WEIJIA YOU HAVE NOT BEEN REPLYING MY EMAILS YOU STUPID STUPID STUPID PIG! : ( I am going to slaughter you & chop you into pieces then cook in curry to eat the next time i see you,HAHAHAHAHAAA.
&I thought...Nevermind.