I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
You don't fucking know the meaning of "I'm Sorry." Even if you do or DID,at the rate you've been saying it &everything,it has lost its meaning.Totally.
You don't understand,I swear.
... ...
Forget it.
I'm sick,tired,&drained of life cos of all the bullshit happening in my life.
I dont need your on&off attitudes again at this moment.
&So the pretence goes on huh.
If you can,I can too.
I'll do it even better.
Don't worry,I won't let the problem between us affect our clique of friends.
Even if it does,
It's definitely your side of the problem.
I've done everything I could.
I've given everything I have,tried,put in my full effort,to keep it going,to at least keep the 'friendship between us...
For you.
What did i get in return?
Nothing.
Zip Zero,NOTHING.
No wait,oh,i got a whole lot full of emptiness,tears & heart aches.
Thank god I passed my re-test &didn't get retained,or else I'd be in the same class as you this year,&it would have been so much more messier.
Much more.
I'm sorry.
Please,this isn't easy for me...
I can't contd keeping up this act &everything anymore.
I.Just.Cant.
No more games boy.
No more.
4H'07,come on people buck up! Don't let the teachers demoralise us any further alrighte.Find the class spirit &just do our best for 0'levels.At this pt of time,nothing should be in our way towards it.Nothing.
Tan kee hoe is damn mean siah : (
Okay,I was wrong.
Thanks Mrs Tan^^
A maths test tmr,I'm off to mug.
At least,try to pass =/
Sigh.
&I thought...Nevermind.