I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Bet you never thought that I could break you.
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah,you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
...&Now i can breathe again,I'm never going back to you.
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say.
Nothing inside me feels connected to you,anymore.
Abby,I love you girl.You know that <3 color="#ff0000">Jingyi,you're gonna be damn proud of me man,haha! (: Love.
This is to a beloved friend of mine,Tinghui.
I feel like shit,making you worry &everything.After I saw your blog post,I felt so... upset with myself cos you're there worrying about me while I'm being a bitch not telling you so much stuff.I'm sorry I've been such a lousy friend &that I can't always find the words to say.I've come to a point where...I have no words to explain myself anymore,cos those words are lost.All that I'm left with is a whole shitload of 'feeling like crap'.I can't say/express it,but I can feel it.I'm sorry I haven't been there for you recently,& for a moment I even felt that we were drifting apart.But now I see that the problem lies with me.I love you,& please know that I will always be there for you no matter what too.I miss the old times,where we first knew each other &we could just talk about anything,literally.We've both changed over these months,but you've been the love of my life,supporting me all these while,standing by my side when everyone just left me.You've been great,&although I'm turning out this way...I promise you that I'll be fine someday.&As soon as possible. <3
&I thought...Nevermind.