I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
I mean it.
Don't.You.Dare.
Oh,didn't I tell you?
I'm not going to look back anymore.
Never.
So let's just call it even when I'm walking out the door.
What goes around,comes around.You should know that by now.
So here's my resolution,I'm letting go.
Goodbye,you.
I'm in a generally pretty good mood today,keke.Maybe like what weijia says,recovery? (?!!?) Or maybe it's just the beginning of denial-ism.Hur hur,nevermind.
&I finally understood how he felt that time.A year back,I couldn't understand what he was feeling,couldnt understand why he could just so easily say he's tired & give up on us...a period of time even being angry with him.
But now i know.
Cos I'm feeling for 23 stars the same way as bgf did towards me that time.
A whole mass shitload of emptiness & disappointment is all that's left.
Nothing else,numbness.
Ouch.
Jasmine,I do not want a squeaking/squealing 'mouse' sitting behind me in class tmr horh :/ My godz.
Jingyi,I'll be behind you all the way love. : D Anytimeeeeee;
Weijia,you stupid ass never wait for me! &@%^$*@%~
Okay I'm going to contd mugging for geog settlement test tmr.I miss ms yap : / Sigh.History source based was a sucker,I can't believe i screwed it up,it's like one whole big chunk below my nomal standard,fuck.I probably wasn't in an "analysing'' mood that day.I'm so damn fucking tired at the moment,not cos of lack of sleep,but ...nevermind.
Nothing but an empty page.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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