I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Playing like a record over &over again.
Realization&fear.
Thank you Mr Ng.
I love you,Abygail.You keep holding on too,take care.
&Jingyi,thanks for the support.(: You're the love.
Thanks,Jian.For being there all the while recently.
I love Mrs Poh for making extra time whole heartedly for me to teach me geog even though I'm not her student.Thank you.
What if I don't make it.
The question remains.
Cos I can't take it.I refuse to break down.I won't let it happen.Even if the reality is that I can't make it,I will do everything to make it.I must.
There's no time or room for mistakes&failure,anymore.
I'm sick,tired&fedup when at this stage,I still can't do many difficult sums despite all the massive practise & studying.
...Half a year to go.
WILL BE ON HIATUS UNTIL MYE'S ARE OVER.
Goodbye world,for now.
Take care everyone,study hard &good luck for the upcoming MYE's.
Will be back.
...Until then.
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When you walk away,I count the steps that you take.
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone,
the pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone,
the face I came to know is missing too.
When you're gone,
all the words I need to hear to always get me through the day,
and make it okay...
I miss you.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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