I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Thanks for the....erm,offer.
Uh,I can take care of myself well ^^ Don't woryyyy.
Thanks anyway.Really,for everything all this time.
Okay.
So now why does like,the whole entire world think that I can't take care of myself?
This so does not make sense.
Not at all.
I think I've disappointed you again,Weijia.Maybe you thought I had more to who I was,& that I wouldn't be so stupid...Sorry.
There's a few people I want to talk to...but I dont have time,they don't have time.....or either when I try to tell them,I find that I don't know how to start without feeling like crap all over again,and how to explain the things &shit I felt.Sigh,nevermind.
I wish you cared more,girlfriend.
Cos I feel like I'm a sparetire friend to you,
like when there's no one on your piority favourite list who is available,
then you'd come to me.
It's not that I mind too much actually,as long as you still treat me as a friend &I still can be there for you.
But I dont like this feeling at all.
Not one bit.
Oh,Jiadong,You owe me lunch dammit. :/
Tinghui seems to be high tonight,good sign(:
It's 5plus in the morning at the moment.
Sweetdreams to whoever's sleeping on their comfy beds now.
That avril lavigne 'girlfriend' song of hey hey you you is stuck in my head dammit.
Ugh! -.-
Do I still matter to you?
Or...Did I ever matter to you from the start,or was I just a substitute all along?
I need to know...
Just to at least have a piece of mind to let go of you.
&I thought...Nevermind.