I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
You guys ah,just cos I'm not around doesn't mean you all can do anyway you want.Nevermind,I'll let it pass for once this time on account it was lifeng's birthday celebration.Jiadong,monday,you wait i tell you.You're officially dead.
Wanzhuo,don't get influenced.Please.
Changxu is the most guai one out of all! : D I knew he was dependable,ahaaa.
I've been a bad mood the whole day today,down...most likely.
But I've been trying to press down the feelings of insecurity & glumness since afternoon.
Congrats &goodjob Jian! I knew it (: Now,you need to STUDY,you ass.
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You're such a disappointment.
Over&over again,you told me lies,broke your promises.You know i don't like people who smoke,&i've always been pretty happy about the fact that you're not a smoker despite that the rest of them were mostly heavy smokers.Yet...you did,tonight.Plus,you got yourself all drunk &gabbling rubbish from time to time...again.
If it was really so painful,why did you even do all those to me in the first place.Then when i leave,you reverse back.The point is...?I don't get you.&I guess I never did & never will.
Have you ever gave a fucking shit about how I would feel.
...Oh I'm sorry.I guess I'm in no position to say these anymore.
I'm nobody to you,now.
&I'm fucking sorry that i ever cared,or still care so damn hopelessly much about you.
When you're obviously worth not even a millisecond of my time.
&I thought...Nevermind.