I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
63 marks gone for E maths paper 2 just cos my brain crashed although I did sleep last night,sufficently too.& It's not that I didn't know how to do those qns,i look at them,I'm fucking sure I do know but my brain just wouldnt start working.Even for one marks qns.
I did study.I practised everything I could find.I tried & did all the qns,brushing up on my sec 3 topics like crazy for fear I would lose out on them.
For the first time in years since secondary school,I honestly hoped,believed that I would do well for E maths cos I knew I was prepared,confident...something I've lost since primary school.
But hey,look what happened.All the efforts...= A big fat 0.
Totally zip,zero,nothing.
& I doubt I can pull back a pass in paper 1 even if i work damn hard cos I suck at mental calculation.
E maths = F9 already.
Confirm plus chop.
So what does this show?
...I am going without sleep for the rest of the days until exams are over next thursday.
& Maybe,looks like I'm destinied to suck in maths.
Geog MCQ & A maths paper 2 are my last chances for the two subjects.
Stop feeling fucking demoralized,Weiru.
This.is.not.the.end.of.the.world.yet.
& I refuse to get screwed by KeeHoe when he does his whole "demoralizing" thing again after midyears.I do not want my name on that bloody list of his again.No shitz from him.No,no.
-Thank you Imee,Abby,Nicole,Wanzhuo,Donna & Edward.
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With love.(?)
...& There you go MIA again.
Sigh.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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