I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Source based was good,essay on nazi concidentially came out on how hitler used his power to establish dictatorship,which was something I (luckily) still remember fragments of,from the level test few weeks back.It's either a good fail or a bare pass.Ah,well.At least better than I hoped,considering that I didnt study as much as I planned to last night cos I crashed out on the bed & never woke up until this morning around 4 am due to insufficient sleep for the past week continuously,& start panicking.
& Besides.Everything that I did manage to study didn't come out for anyway. -.- Screw you Mariam.Can't you like for two essays in one theme come out one for each chap in the theme?...Stupid post war china of Theme 3.
& I just can't get over the fact that I lose 30 marks for section B geog cos I brain crashed halfway& wrote too slow,when i knew everything.I even thought the paper was pretty easy to some extent that perhaps I could aim for a B.But looks like I've thrown away my own B by throwing away 30 marks unwritten.Sigh.All I can do now is to pia damn hard for my MCQ to like manage a bare pass only.Fuck fuck fuck.
E maths tommorow.Why do I have a sinking feeling about the whole MYE thing?
Operation Revenge:
Plan A accomplished,Ashley.Hi five!
...& Now,for Plan B. : D
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Hey love,listen to what we're not saying.
Don't go,stay here with me.
I miss you.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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