I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Feeling repulsive & the hard disappointment is eating into me.
No way is this kind of disguisting,eyesore thing going to be seen,ever again.
First time in four years of Sec sch,but it won't appear a second time.
This is a promise I'm making to myself.
& Don't give up on me when I haven't,please.
I'll be MIA'ing from this world &whatsoever that'll be going on until 0'levels are officially done & over with.
So from this moment on,goodbye.
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I'm sorry I have to do this.Thank you for the support & understanding.
But maybe next time.
Not now.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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