I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Maybe sometimes...what you give,is not what you get.Just a thought here.
I hope this world can be just be a lil more fair to me...at least.Sigh nevermind.I'm just indulging in self pity probably.So dont mind me.
Mid years is pretty screwed up,by the looks of it,it's worse than usual.& I really wonder how the hell it happened.I know i fell sick halfway through it,but now I regret not taking an mc on those days to take on another day.Now see what happened,my marks are on the line.Ah,what's done is done I guess.I already vision my name being on top of kee hoe's list so...well.That's something unavoidable.
& So....From now on,I'm going to read one chap of geog,history and ss each day before I sleep!Read the same chap every night for a week & so on.& If I dont manage to remember everything by prelims...I'll hang myself.(: Anyway i've had enough play for the last few days,time to get back to studying anyways.
Changxu,Lifeng,Abby,Nicole,Richny & Ashley > Xie xie niiiiiii.
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You always had the ability to manipulate my feelings.
Ouch.
I just wish you knew exactly what you're doing.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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