I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Slipping slipping slipping.
Getting far too way...off.
& my competition is coming up.Which clashes with prelims.
...I can't take it.I'm freaking out every second inside,trembling negatively. Maybe it's cos I've been trying too hard for far too long for everything.I've never been one to take failures well yet I'm always failing in whatever I do.So I want to believe I can but somewhere inside me tells me I can't.Those kind of contradictory feelings which are pulling me deep down under.
I definitely define the definition of a complete loser.
I need a direction.Any,direction.
I can't afford to crash now.
Someone,guide me.
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You guys looking for her?
I'm sorry,that girl which you both used to know/love/see from young died a long way back.
Very long way back.
...I dont think there's any chance for her to be reborn,either.
This,applies to both of you.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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