I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
People always say if the old doesnt go,the new doesnt come.However,no matter how much you do treasure the new,it can never replace the old completely.
Never.
...I never did forget.
You never really knew how much you meant to me.
& how much you affected me by shutting me out suddenly that time.
But it's all past tense.
I'm just glad to hear from you again,now.
Just maybe,I can still revive a friendship which I thought I'd lost almost 3 years back.
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It was hard but it was also time to say it.
I dont expect you to understand why anyway.
You never will either.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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